[It can't go on, and he knows it. It's too much, too big, his own broken and pathetic existence is more than he can handle but he doesn't know (no part of him knows) how to just reach out and admit he needs help.
But right now, he can't hide it. Right now, he is everything wrong with him and he can't hide it and he's going to get hurt, he's going to get deeply hurt because everyone knows how pathetic he is and everyone is going to strike at every glaringly obvious weakness.
But...
The radio crackles with Carly's loud concern, and Yukio can't do this, he can't even breathe.
He doesn't respond, just stops talking entirely. But about half an hour later, there's a small, quiet voice coming over the radio to Carly's private channel.]
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But right now, he can't hide it. Right now, he is everything wrong with him and he can't hide it and he's going to get hurt, he's going to get deeply hurt because everyone knows how pathetic he is and everyone is going to strike at every glaringly obvious weakness.
But...
The radio crackles with Carly's loud concern, and Yukio can't do this, he can't even breathe.
He doesn't respond, just stops talking entirely. But about half an hour later, there's a small, quiet voice coming over the radio to Carly's private channel.]
I'm sorry. I... I just... I can't do this.