[Day 69] Morning - Public Channel

[steadydollypegs]

Anybody ever had a dream about dyin'? But it feels so real that it's less like a dream and more like... a memory? An' it's not you dyin', it's somebody else, but yer seein' it like it's you.

[That is so specific Doll. Surely nobody has had this same experience. There's some awkward tense air before she continues.]

Normally I don' dream much, but this was right unsett'lin. Couldn' sleep much after.

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[prazerbutterfly]

[There's a stifled yawn on his end only because he was up late the previous night.]

Can't say I have, little princess. [He's suppose to have memories of his former life, even their deaths, but that memory was broken.] Want to talk about it?

[steadydollypegs]

Yeah. [Dang, she hadn't meant to wake Tyki up. But let's be real, she probably woke some people up with all her screeching the night before, so she really doesn't have a leg to stand on here.]

I was freezin' cold, 'n runnin' through a cave. Or a tunnel? More like a tunnel. An' someone came through th'wall 'n told me ta stop lookin' fer somebody. But it was real important, I guess, even though I didn' know who it was who was so important... so I kept on goin'.

[prazerbutterfly]

[She knows it's alright regardless. His door was always open and welcomed to Doll, even in tents, and she could wake him up at any hour if she needed it.]

A tunnel of ice or just a very cold tunnel? Go on.

[steadydollypegs]

It... it was ice, yeah. Def'nitely ice. Dunno why I wasn' dressed fer ice, seems a bit foolish now that I think about it.

Anyway. She jus' told me ta 'survive', but I didn' much like that. I wanted ta help. [Apparently she shared that with whoever this was in her dream.] I saw somebody move down a darker tunnel, so instead'a goin' down the lighter, warmer one, I followed the shadowy-figg'r.

[prazerbutterfly]

Dreams don't always make sense but say for a moment they did, it would likely be because one was in a hurry or they didn't expect ice. Then again, men have done more foolish things out of self pride.

[He's not giving advice because he's listening. He wants her to talk it out. To feel better.] Because it was important, or because you felt you had to or wanted to?

[spaghettimonster]

Not recently...

[And good thing, too, with all the troubles about dreams lately.]

But I've had something like that. Except, it was slightly opposite. It wasn't me, but it was real, but it felt like a dream.

I didn't feel much like sleeping after that, either.

[steadydollypegs]

It was real? How was it real but like a dream? I don' get it...

[spaghettimonster]

Well, you see, it was dreamlike.

[He pauses just long enough for the wording to sink in.]

But mostly! It was happening to someone else. I saw things from their point of view... Things happened, and I couldn't change them. I was just along for the ride.

[steadydollypegs]

... [Yeah alright, she'll try to wrap her head around that even though it didn't really answer the question.]

Yeah, sometimes I felt like I was bein'... I dunno, guided t'do somethin'. Or I'd give myself a reason t'do it one way 'stead of another. What happened in your, ah, incident?

[spaghettimonster]

[Papyrus hums agreement, like something in Doll's description is familiar. Having thoughts and feelings all skew toward what's 'supposed' to be happening... That dream incident and his experiences with mind control have had that in common.]

My incident... Not to dwell on the details too much, but, 'I' picked a fight. And did kind of terribly? It was a good thing it wasn't me doing the fighting, or it might have gone very differently!

But that was ages ago. Completely unrelated to yours, I'm sure.

[psionichax0r]

[Normally he wouldn't comment on such a personal statement, but he knows from experience how dreams of death can haunt you.]

If it's unusual for you it probably won't happen again.

[steadydollypegs]

I c'n only hope it stays unusual. I don' care ta relive somebody dyin' over 'n over again.

[sunflowerfields]

Do you want to talk about it, dear?

[Concerned mom mode: go]

[steadydollypegs]

Yeah.

[She is not shy or embarrassed about this.]

It was downright unsettlin', is all. Y'expect ta be you in yer own dreams. Not... intrudin' on somebody's memories.

[sunflowerfields]

Do you know who's memories they were?

[steadydollypegs]

I don'... I've never seen anythin' like th'person that came through th'wall. All fire, 'n a big axe... I think. I think I was supposed ta look like her? She called me 'spark'.

[whattaprick]

[ Vivid dreams, huh... ]

Seems to be something that's going around. Not the dying part ... just the dreams that feel real.

[steadydollypegs]

Yeah? I haven' heard... [She's been a little preoccupied, to say the least.] Who else had a dream like this?

[whattaprick]

Shura. Dunno if you've met her.

She says she's not much of a dreamer, either. Thinks it might have something to do with those mushi Ginko was talking about.

[steadydollypegs]

Maybe... Yeah, it must have somethin' ta do with 'em. But this was so...

[Unsettling? Visceral?]

I don' know. If mushi can cause that, we wanna move away from here real lickity-split like.

[haides]

(You called?) The passing is not easy for most. You are not alone.

[steadydollypegs]

"The passin'"? [She didn't, but she'll take any perspective on this.]

[haides]

Death is a journey; not immediate. (He knows this better than almost anyone.) I do not make it more difficult than it need be.

[steadydollypegs]

...Yeah well, I woulda appreciated it if it was a little faster, honestly. This lady got real, real close and kissed me b'fore I finally died. Coulda done without all that.

...hang on, are you sayin' you're th'one that made that dream happen for me?

[haides]

I do not dream. (As far as he knows anyway.) Nor have I experienced death or a kiss. What you saw came from another. I only know how death comes upon a person and how it takes them away.